The Two Year Transformation

Let me say a few words about two years ago.

On my 30th birthday, my house was full – FULL – of people I loved and who loved me, and I was hiding huddled in my room, feeling like a blight on the planet and like the loneliest person alive.

Breakup-illness-leaving a job-hating graduate school … the details aren’t important, but it did all happen within the space of a year, leaving me a confused, directionless mess who could barely eat or leave the house.

A few weeks ago, I was lucky enough to have one of those experiences which stopped me in my tracks and pointed out how different I am now, just two years later. I walked into a coaches training course, just about two years after I had taken my very first coach training, and I noticed how differently I showed up. Two years ago, I walked in terrified and uncertain. I was uncomfortable in groups. Everyone else seemed so much more professional and knowledgeable. I felt like the only person who was lost. I held back and barely spoke. I didn’t know what I would be doing the next week, or next month, or next year.

This time, I walked into the class feeling my confidence, and knowing I love my life. I have found work that I love and in which I flourish. I have built a business. My training in therapist skills has transformed my ability to connect to people individually and in groups, and how to show up with presence in a group. Two years ago I was desperately looking for something to be optimistic about, and this time around I walked in already loving what is.

So, all of this has made it into a blog post for two reasons:

1. It’s important for me to mark the differences, and to note what’s changed, for myself. To remember to celebrate.

2. To prompt you to experiment with thinking: How different might your life be in two years? What if it could be different beyond your wildest dreams? How would you love it to be? And – it’s just two years away.


  1. Wow, I was so excited and happy to read this post. You have changed from my experiences with you. YOU are what you need to be, right here, right now. Blessings, Sue

  2. you are amazing Laura!! thanks for sharing this.

  3. I love this post. I love everything said and not said. I can imagine the courage, the tenacity, the dedication, the joy and most of all the grounded center. Thank you so much for making this declaration – it is really inspiring.

    It is a challenge to step up to the plate and a reminder to take action – to do what’s important even when we can’t see where it is leading. Th way you have offered us this challenge by being so transparent is truly a gift.